One
of my early childhood memories was when I was really little and hadn’t learned
to tie my shoes yet. I was stubborn and wanted to tie my own shoes (this was
before the days of Velcro – ouch, it hurts to admit that). Never mind that I hadn’t the ability to, or
knowledge to; I didn’t want to be bothered by the details. My parents tried to tell me that it would
be better, on all of us, if I just let them tie my shoes for me, but no. I had to do it myself.
Of
course, I failed miserably. I couldn’t
do it on my own. All I could accomplish
was to frustrate myself and my parents and take a long time fiddling around
with the laces, but alas, they failed get tied in the nice bow that my parents
could achieve. I was simply unwilling to
wait, unwilling to let my parents do what (at that point, at least) only they
could do, and unwilling to let go. I
insisted on doing things my own way, taking matters into my own hands.
My
reading this week allowed me a view into a similar situation with the
Israelites. My journey through the Old
Testament took me through Genesis 48 – 50, Exodus 1 – 4, Psalms 48 – 54, Ruth 3
– 4, and 1 Samuel 1 – 5. In 1 Samuel 4
(verses 1 – 5) we find an apt lesson similar to what I learned in the whole
“tying shoes” episode.
At that time Israel was at
war with the Philistines. The Israelite army was camped near Ebenezer, and the
Philistines were at Aphek. The
Philistines attacked and defeated the army of Israel, killing 4,000 men. After the battle was over, the troops
retreated to their camp, and the elders of Israel asked, “Why did the Lord
allow us to be defeated by the Philistines?” Then they said, “Let’s bring the
Ark of the Covenant of the Lord from Shiloh. If we carry it into battle with
us, it will save us from our enemies.”
So they sent men to Shiloh to bring the Ark of the Covenant of the Lord
of Heaven’s Armies, who is enthroned between the cherubim. Hophni and Phinehas,
the sons of Eli, were also there with the Ark of the Covenant of God. When all the Israelites saw the Ark of the
Covenant of the Lord coming into the camp, their shout of joy was so loud it
made the ground shake!
The
Israelites had experienced some successes after their wilderness wanderings …
successes by the direct intervention of the Lord. They had defeated their enemies many
times. Like a growing child, they began
to have some positive experiences growing as a nation and began to develop
expectations of being able to do what they set their efforts to. But like a child, they didn’t have maturity
to realize what they couldn’t do. So
when they suffered defeat at the hands of the Philistines, they were
perplexed. They decided to take matters
into their own hands. Set aside for the
moment that they didn’t have the ability to win; that didn’t matter and
certainly didn’t dissuade them.
We
can be the same way, can’t we? The
second things don’t go the way we want them to … when God doesn’t fulfill our wishes
the way we think He should … we revert to our own way of doing things. We selectively set aside our memories about
God’s blessing in our lives and try to take on a task we can’t do, or we figure
He must need our help. Forget that we
haven’t the first clue how to bring ourselves the blessings God can. Forget that we can’t see the things that He
can see about our lives, the lives of those around us, etc. Forget that He is all-powerful and we
aren’t. Don’t let the details get in the
way. We want to tie our own shoes and
perish the thought of anyone … God included … telling us we can’t just yet.
Sure,
there are things in life we can eventually learn and do on our own. Tying shoes included. It comes with surrender in early life, taking
the time to learn and grow, letting someone else show us how it’s done, and
then … in the right timing (God’s timing perhaps) … we might be ready to do it
on our own. But, there’s no skipping
ahead, and there are at times certain things we’ll never be able to do. It sure doesn’t stop us from trying, does
it? Sometimes it goes right past
“trying” to “insisting”.
That’s
what we see from the Israelites. How’d
it work out for them? Verses 10 and 11
tell us.
So the Philistines fought
desperately, and Israel was defeated again. The slaughter was great; 30,000
Israelite soldiers died that day. The survivors turned and fled to their tents.
The Ark of God was captured, and
Hophni and Phinehas, the two sons of Eli, were killed.
It
couldn’t have gone worse. Just like (in
a smaller, simpler way, of course) my trying to tie my shoes when I was a
little kid.
When
we take matters into our own hands, we are inherently refusing to trust
God. We wrongly assume we know what we’re
doing … and compared to God, we haven’t the foggiest notion of how to run
life. It can only work out to our
detriment.
Think
about times when God didn’t seem to respond in the way you wanted Him to, or
thought He should. Or maybe He didn’t
respond fast enough. Maybe you figured a
particular situation was too sensitive for God to handle, or that He was busier
with other things and needed you to jump in to manage the small stuff. How did those times work out? I can attest, when I’ve done that … actually,
when I DO that (because there are times when I still do) … it’s been a
disaster. I just screw stuff up. I’m not able to do it the way God would, I
don’t have the knowledge and context that God has. It’s an epic failure. Just like me trying to tie my own shoes as a
little kid.
Bottom
line, God has all the ability to do all He needs to do. He has the knowledge, and He has the
context. Rather than trying to rush to
do things we can’t, we should just wait for Him to work in the way He knows He
should. Instead of INSISTING we tie our
shoes well before our time, we should just let Him tie them for us. We’ll save a ton of failure and frustration
in LIFE.
This
week let’s prayerfully ask God to reveal to us what areas of our lives we are
trying to take over … what are the areas where we’re trying to tie our
shoes. Let’s ask Him to give us the
courage and patience to trust Him and let Him do what only He is capable of
doing, and to remind us that there are areas where we don’t have the requisite
knowledge. And let’s ask Him to help us
accept as such and to rejoice, even if He hasn’t tied them already, that He
will tie them soon enough … as soon as He plans to … as soon as we need (rather
than want) Him to.
Blessings
in Christ Jesus,
MR